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17 / male / interested in: men / 6♠
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Prior to arriving here, I was a new demon applying myself to learn everything I could about Hell and its rules as well as demons and the games that they play among one another. Prior to that, I was human—a student in school.
Anything else you want to know about me, you will have to ask me yourself.
Regardless of whether I’m here or in Hell, my goal is the same: I want to learn everything I can about this place and its people, and then I want to utilize the rules and rewards of the Game to best benefit myself. I want to discover what it means to become “powerful” in this place, and I plan on collecting cards and climbing ranks in order to do so—and on my own terms.
Determination and adaptability.
I’m interested in anything thrilling, frightening, or mysterious. Beyond that, I’m willing to try any number of new things, though I typically tend to focus on whatever is capturing my interest at the time. As for food, I would say that my sweet tooth is comparatively underdeveloped—I tend to prefer savory food, though I would be happy to share sweets with another.
What’s most important to me is that it’s someone who accepts me and loves me for everything that I am.
…Though, if he’s attractive, that would certainly be a bonus.
Wine
.02 CLOWNS OR MIMES
…Neither
.03 SHOWER OR BATH
Bath
.04 PIRATES OR NINJAS
Seriously? Neither. This is kind of childish…
.05 TITS OR ASS
Depends
.06 COFFEE OR TEA
Either
.07 SPICY OR SWEET
Spicy
.08 SUMMER OR WINTER
Winter
.09 LEATHER OR LACE
Lace
10. ROUGH SEX OR GENTLE SEX
Both have their place, I think…
INTJ-T
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Alright, deal.
I think you're giving me a lot of credit... But even if something like that did come to pass, of course I wouldn't.
Why would I forget someone who has been so kind to me?
Though I feel like it's more likely you'll end up in a position of power before I do.
Would you let something like that go to your head?
( mister nine of hearts... )
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A position of power?
Me??
That's craaaaazy!
[ unless . . . ]
I don't think so?
I don't know what power really is.
I just want to be happy. And make others happy.
Can power really do that?
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Is that so hard to imagine?
( he doesn't know robin very well, but he'd had a sort of natural influence over other people, just with the way he acted towards them. it's probably for the best that he's so good-hearted about it; a demon would use that ability to manipulate and use others, without a doubt. )
Where I come from, power is less strength and more influence. Like, using your reputation to either get people to do something you want or deter them from doing something you don't.
But that's just in my experience. But I still think that would be a good "power" to have in this place.
I think it's possible, though. That you could use that sort of power to make other people happy.
You could just help them have an easier time in here... and I'm sure there are other ways as well.
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If my power is to make people happy, or that's how I can get power, then I think it'd be nice if everyone could do that. And should do that! Or they could make themselves happy. Then everyone could be powerful. When everyone's like that, doesn't that make power itself kind of... like... the new normal?
[ it makes sense to him. doesn't mean it's right. or, tbh, logical to anyone else. ]
Ehe. But in the real world, maybe I just want to make you happy.
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It isn't guaranteed that what would make some people happy would make everyone happy. It might very well do the opposite. And while many might be content with their lot, there is always the possibility that others might have the ambition and drive to prove themselves as distinct from or even superior to others.
So I'm not really sure it would be that easy. Even though it would be nice if it was.
( robin's sentiment is bright and shining, but in that it just feels as though it throws makoto into harsher relief—it only makes him feel more dark and twisted in comparison. there's a pause before he responds. )
Is Earth the only place that applies as the "real world"?
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[ insert cuckoo clock noises. the sound of water dripping from a faucet. the gentle thumps of rabbits jumping around. that's his brain rn. ]
The real world is the one where I am at any time. So if that means going to wherever you are, then that'll be where I go.
Even if it's like. Um. You know. Hell.
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Well, thank you, though I really think it's just because I tend to think about that sort of thing a lot.
Oh. Okay.
( 😳 again )
It's probably not as bad as you're picturing. From what I saw, Hell itself isn't that different from Earth.
It's more the demons you have to be careful about...
But... if they tried to start any trouble, I'd protect you from them.
( he'd try (and probably fail?), but. it sounds cooler when he says he'd just do it? )
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I mean, if they're all like you... is it really that bad?
Or are there like. Real demons.
Not saying that you're not one!
But like.
I know you'd do a great job keeping me safe.
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( yes, makoto is a real, true demon now, but just because that's the case doesn't expunge him from sixteen years of life lived as a human. in that way, he's not very much like those other demons at all.
not yet, anyway. )
No, they're... They're not necessarily destructive, but it doesn't mean they're not cruel.
That's why you need to be careful around them.
It will feel like they're offering you everything you've ever wanted, and then you'll end up in an even worse situation than you started in.
( it's almost as though he speaks from experience. )
But I've spent a few months learning how to deal with them, so I... I think I could handle it.
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Maybe I'd make the demons afraid of me! Because I don't need anything they can give me!
[ it's a nice thought, right? ]
It's okay though. I bet if we work together, they won't be able to deal with us. Like... um... I have a sword! Somewhere!
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That might work...
If they had nothing to offer you, they wouldn't have any leverage over you.
Wait, what?
A sword? Like, a real one?
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I'm not great with it but I figure it comes with practice? I just haven't had to use it very often.
I guess if you're willing to protect me, you know how to fight too?
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No... I've never fought or anything like that before.
But something like that wouldn't really matter against demons where I'm from. Physical violence can't kill them, so they usually don't resort to it.
So I suppose it's more about outsmarting them?
But if you have something like that, you should probably try to practice with it when you can, I think.
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I just don't think a lot of people would want to see me holding a sword while we're... like... you know.
Doing things. And stuff. Ehe.
Outsmarting isn't really my kind of thing? I don't think I'm that smart...
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Well, not then, but if you have any other time, of course...!
( though, you never know. some people might be into that (i'm looking at you, rokurou). )
I never really had the highest grades in any of my classes either, but...
I think it's less about being smart like that and more about being clever.
Like, learning how to read people, how to guess what they want and how they want to get it, making sure they can't manipulate you into an unfavorable position and maybe doing the same to them before they realize you're doing it...
It's not like I'm very good at any of that right now either, but... I did feel like it was something I could learn and get better at, before coming here.
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[ frowns inwardly ]
I wouldn't know how to do it! I'm just happy doing my own thing. If people end up liking or disliking me, that's kind of enough for me? I wouldn't want to do anything that ends up compromising what I stand for, you know?
[ what's deception, can you eat it? also it's not like he doesn't do all of this already. it's all natural to him. does that make robin even more dangerous? ]
But maybe you don't have to do those things here! If you're just naturally as nice and kind as you seem, you don't need to be like... all sneaky and stuff.
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but J had taught him in a way he would never forget, not as long as his indefinite life as a demon stretched, that such things didn't matter if you didn't have the strength to back them up. and, where he's from, the only way to gain strength like that is the very deception that robin is presently eschewing. quite the conundrum. )
No, you're right. I probably don't.
But... I guess I still worry. Suppose I do decide to go back, or we're all put back home as suddenly as we were brought here.
What if I've forgotten all the things I was learning? That would put me in... a bit of a dangerous situation.
So I think sometimes I do still need to practice, just so I don't forget.
( and if he gets a little better at reading people and maybe figuring out how to manipulate them to his advantage... all the better )
But, um. Don't worry. I wouldn't do anything like that to you or anyone else who's actually kind to me.
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I know you are!
And I'm glad to hear it.
You shouldn't lie to your friends.
Even if it hurts, you need to be as honest as you can be.
Demons aren't inherently evil, right?
[ just like vampires aren't. he doesn't know a single evil one (that's still alive)! ]
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( 💦 )
Hm... That's not necessarily how I would think of them.
They don't even tend to consider morality like that. They only consider what they want and what they will do to get it. And there's typically not a lot that they won't do to get what they want... They're usually only limited by what's possible for them to do, not by whether it's right or wrong.
So it can depend. There were some demons I met who were friendly and good enough to me.
( though one can argue that it was in datenshou's best interest to take good care of makoto as an asset, to better provide value for his brothel in the future, just as one could argue that it was in fjord's best interest to be a good friend to him in order to remain in J's good graces. )
But they could definitely be very evil if what they want from you is something you don't want to give them.
Do you really think it's best to be honest, regardless of what it is you're being honest about?
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So I guess I have nothing to be afraid of~
[ naive or even stupid as it sounds, robin is confident that he would be safe despite any and all odds. ]
I think it is best to be honest.
What if I said I couldn't lie, even if I wanted to?
Which I wouldn't want to anyway.
It's still impossible for me.
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Though the biggest difference is that humans tend to have more things they aren't willing to do, at least as far as their morality might be concerned...
( so... maybe robin would be fine? or maybe he wouldn't. makoto would always say that hazarding caution is the best choice to make, especially when confronted with demons!! )
I guess I would say... it almost doesn't seem too surprising, in a way.
But, like you said, you wouldn't want to anyway.
Doesn't that just mean you don't have anything you would want to hide?
Something you'd be afraid for other people to know? Or... something that might be dangerous for them to know?
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I have no real secrets. Or dirt, if that's what you want to call it.
Pretty much every part of my life is out there, out in the public. That's what happens when you're on the stage all the time.
Especially for the church!
You can't hide anything from God.
Which I guess is kind of scary...
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Something like that sounds terrible to me...
I don't know how you did it.
( as for the last few comments robin sends... there's a noticeable pause in which makoto fumbles for any reply that isn't too acerbic or incriminating. this sort of thing, pertaining to religion and God, is kind of a sore subject for him... )
No, I don't suppose you can.
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When you're trying to make the people around you happy, trying to make them forget their problems even for a second? It's really worth it in the end.
[ ... ]
Don't worry.
If it makes you feel better, I'd protect you.
Just like if you were family. Okay?
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That's why you enjoyed it. You're good at it.
( if makoto were in the same situation, he would've been perfectly miserable. making people happy? he doesn't think he made a single person happy in his entire existence on earth.
there is a similarly brittle pause. family happens to be another sore subject for makoto, considering his had never been kind to him. as much as he can recognize it means something different for robin, something positive and supportive and protective... he still can't change how "family" means something altogether different for him. )
...Thank you.
Though I doubt there's much to be done at this point.
I've already become a demon. And it's not like I would've ever gotten into God's good graces before I did, anyways.
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