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17 / male / interested in: men / 6♠
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Prior to arriving here, I was a new demon applying myself to learn everything I could about Hell and its rules as well as demons and the games that they play among one another. Prior to that, I was human—a student in school.
Anything else you want to know about me, you will have to ask me yourself.
Regardless of whether I’m here or in Hell, my goal is the same: I want to learn everything I can about this place and its people, and then I want to utilize the rules and rewards of the Game to best benefit myself. I want to discover what it means to become “powerful” in this place, and I plan on collecting cards and climbing ranks in order to do so—and on my own terms.
Determination and adaptability.
I’m interested in anything thrilling, frightening, or mysterious. Beyond that, I’m willing to try any number of new things, though I typically tend to focus on whatever is capturing my interest at the time. As for food, I would say that my sweet tooth is comparatively underdeveloped—I tend to prefer savory food, though I would be happy to share sweets with another.
What’s most important to me is that it’s someone who accepts me and loves me for everything that I am.
…Though, if he’s attractive, that would certainly be a bonus.
Wine
.02 CLOWNS OR MIMES
…Neither
.03 SHOWER OR BATH
Bath
.04 PIRATES OR NINJAS
Seriously? Neither. This is kind of childish…
.05 TITS OR ASS
Depends
.06 COFFEE OR TEA
Either
.07 SPICY OR SWEET
Spicy
.08 SUMMER OR WINTER
Winter
.09 LEATHER OR LACE
Lace
10. ROUGH SEX OR GENTLE SEX
Both have their place, I think…
INTJ-T
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and managed to avoid seeing people naked
so i'm still trying to figure out what i'm into
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( this is partially about being a virgin, because makoto is shitty and a little judgmental, but it's more about not even seeing anyone naked??? not even in movies?? not even at an onsen or bathhouse or anything? a lot of the bathrooms in the resort are communal!!!!
after a significant pause: )
You're... trying to figure it out. Okay.
Um... Have you not ever had any fantasies or anything?
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and i grew up in the sea
like wayyyyyyy out there, just me and a few others
[ Which isn’t necessarily a lie, but everything about never seeing someone nude before definitely is. ]
not really?
my life isn’t exactly normal
i kinda prioritized surviving over everything so the most i ever fantasized about is eating something good
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On a ship...? On an island??
I suppose if you were focused only on surviving, it might not have come up, but...
Hm. Well, basically everything in this place is geared toward sex, one way or another. Even when you don't really think it might be.
Has anything seemed even a little interesting to you?
Or... the opposite?
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[ yeah :) ]
and yeah i've realized lol
it's crazy because that's all anyone ever talked about but so far i've managed to go without having sex
it's probably just a me thing though
[ because he doesn't care... not because he's annoying and everyone is instinctively trying to get away from him. ]
hugging this one guy was pretty cool
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Okay...
I'm glad you had an enjoyable... hug.
Do you think you're going to have a problem if you need to go further than that?
Because I wasn't joking earlier, what I said about not turning to stone.
( makoto hadn't had this problem. he'd fucked someone on the first day he was here. whoops. )
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stupid and don't know what sex is
i don't think so
[ hmm... makoto's a bit of a weirdo, so maybe he can be a little honest: ]
but i noticed that the one time i got jerked off it was after i did something that could be labeled as traumatizing and against the law
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I just thought it was kind of funny that you've been in place for however long and a hug is the most noteworthy thing to mention.
It's not bad or anything!
And maybe it was mean to think of it as funny, so
Um... forget I said anything, then.
( he's certainly a weirdo. a weirdo occasionally afflicted with overactive anxieties.
at that, he almost has to laugh. ah, it's something they share, in a way... a lot of makoto's first formative sexual experiences were also. either deeply illegal, immoral, or traumatizing (and he had been both the one enacting and the one being enacted upon, depending!). usually he wouldn't be so bold as to ask, but he finds himself morbidly curious... )
What did you do...?
If it's something you don't want to share
Maybe we can trade?
The first time I ever had sex with someone, it was after I'd done something many people would consider illegal as well...
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it’s weird don’t do that
and you shouldn’t be sorry because it’s not like i’m being rejected or anything
i’m just experimenting on something
did you kill someone lol
[ The jump from one to the next is so abrupt, but that should be expected considering Obikawa is everything but predictable. ]
i killed her fiancé, kidnapped, and poisoned her
and before you ask she’s alive and well i gave her an antidote and then poisoned her again every couple of hours
and also she was the one that touched me
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"Fuck you." Is that better?
( he's hot then he's cold, he's yes then he's no... )
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wow... and he thought he was a freak and a degenerate. or, well, they both are, and in different ways and to different extents, but— )
And she wanted to beat you off, after all of that??
( given the way he's talked about it, he sincerely doubts obikawa forced her... )
If he were human, he definitely would have died, but...
He was a demon, and I asked him to make sure he stayed alive through the whole thing.
I kind of, um...
Tore him in half...? Among other things...
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[ Obikawa will now hide the fact that he has ate a lot of people from Makoto specifically for at least six months. ]
yeah
have no clue why she wanted to do that but i wasn't really gonna stop her lmao
[ The truth: she was interested in retrieving any of her fiancé's cells. Please don't ask me why the author decided that beating Obikawa off while he's taking the form of his body made sense. ]
so you're into hurting people while you get off?
but to extreme, inhumane levels
i guess that's why you went looking for a demon
because you knew you couldn't find someone who could withstand your cruelty
i mean
you made a better choice than most people
but then again not a lot of people believe in demons and whatever
so did you like it?
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(2/2) cw: suicide mention
I... suppose so
Though that is pretty messed up.
Not that I have much room to judge, though...
( he doesn't, for the most part? had they deserved it? anyways. )
The way I'd put it is, the things that get me most excited tend to be the things that would probably kill a person...
But I don't actually want to become a murderer for something like that
I didn't really believe in demons either, when I tried it... but when it actually worked, I did think it was the best way to do it, at the time.
( though, really, selling his soul to a demon had been done more with the intention of killing himself. being able to gore and devour said demon beforehand had simply been a perk (that he had taken full advantage of). )
Um
Well, yeah...
Did you like a girl you kidnapped and nearly killed jerking you off?
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[ As if he's not doing that right now. ]
hm
mhm
mhmmmmmmmmmmm
i see
well it's a good thing that you met up with a demon and whatever so you at least know hell's real because i'm pretty sure you're not getting into heaven
but maybe that's a good thing?
are you happy with how you life is now?
are these desires strong enough that you don't feel like you could ever live normally again?
[ These are all very normal questions to ask -- at least for their conversation. Obikawa treats it normally and without any judgement, at least, considering that his form is love definitely lacks the other party being alive. ]
it was fine
[ He also was using the body of her fiancé. He wore rose-tinted glasses, recognizing that the more he remained in Minami's form the more he fell in love with her. ]
for me i think i just want to be as close to someone else as i can get
it's hard to describe it
but it's like i want them living inside me
so getting jerked off and all that was just fine but not GREAT yknow
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If there is a heaven, I very much doubt I would have gotten in even if I'd never acted on what I wanted.
But that's fine. If it's the domain of a God who would hate and abandon me for something I didn't ask for, I wouldn't want to be there anyway.
Um...
Sometimes, things have been very hard, but in general I do think I feel happier. More hopeful?
And, well, yeah... By the end of my contract, I definitely got that feeling...
( it's essentially why he had decided to stop dragging his feet, prompting to finally tell J that he was "full." he'd gotten to do something to the demon he'd never do to another human without killing them, and it'd been the most incredible thing he'd ever done—how can he go back after something like that?
but, yeah. it's a very normal conversation! or at least it is to makoto, who is himself very abnormal. really, it's kind of a relief to talk so frankly with someone so strange himself that he doesn't really expect any judgment?
anyways. living inside of him? hm. makoto's more of a hard vore guy, so he's puzzling over that for a moment. )
Yeah, I think I understand.
( more than pretty much anyone might, tbh. )
Living inside of you, huh... Were you being more serious than I gave you credit for when we first met and you threatened to eat me?
( HE MEANS THIS MOSTLY JOKINGLY, BUT, LIKE... )
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but you're right who cares
that's a good thing
even if it's fucked up
you found out a little bit about yourself
people tend to spend so much time out of their lives never getting to be who they really are or even acknowledging it
so at least you got to do that
do you think i'm a cannibal?????
makoto are you stupid
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( and he'd done a lot of research!
anyways. that was bizarrely insightful for obikawa. what the hell? )
I guess you're right.
I think it would have been very bad for myself or for other people if I kept living the way that I had been, so... it was for the best.
Well... I'm a demon now, not a human.
Is that still strictly-speaking cannibalism?
( semantics, or is he just being pedantic? probably both. )
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then should i start calling you the demon fucking demon
you look really human though
whole head thing aside
and i guess your eyes
can you do anything else
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
if i said
makoto i want you inside me
how would you perceive it
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You're really not that good with names.
But, yes, I know.
It's not by choice. If it were in my power to look less human, I would.
And, um... not really?
I can remove my head from my body. That's about it.
Well
Probably like any other person and assume you wanted me to fuck you.
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then let's just keep assuming that
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Something like horns, wings, or a tail
Anything that would help me stand out as a demon. Most people just assume I'm human still.
( and he didn't go through what he went through for people to assume things like that. /:
speaking of assumptions: makoto frowns at the screen of his Watch. )
If you say so...
Like they say, two times is a coincidence, but three is a pattern.
( which means if obikawa has one more vore-related slip-up, then makoto is officially onto him!! )
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at least that’s what they did back home
[ Not exactly — they took his cells and gave them traits of a God. Powers they shouldn’t have, bodies they couldn’t control; ugly, disgusting mounds of flesh that he wanted back. ]
but it was ugly
like just like a pile of shit on rice
fucking disgusting lmao
also that could just be how i talk!!
i’m not a big spooky demon or anything in disguise
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Like some sort of transplant? Though... no, with cells, it's almost more like a graft or a genetic modification.
Well, if it ended up in something like that... it's definitely not something I'd want to risk, I think.
( besides. with his complicated (read: negative) feelings on divinity, he wouldn't want traits of a God anyway. )
Hmmmm...
Just what a big spooky demon would want me to believe...